kitty’s dark parade

28 Nov

as far as i could remember, all of us in the family loves cats. be it little kitties nor big ones, there’s no exception for us to adore and cherish them. for some, they are only nuisance with fur, but to us they share wondrous moments in life.

today, spotty, a 4 months kitty, died of unknown cause. she remained quiet, resisted food and water with constant persistence to be alone somewhere hidden in the house. these were the signs she was going away but we refused to subdued to the fact as she was in the picture of good health. she was playful and joyful to everyone in the house.

she was one of the many cats we had and lost in years. when i was little, we had this young mommy cat which had 4 kittens named after all the Japanese characters we know. one by one died of many causes which i couldnt actually remember, so we stopped giving japanese names (taboo) 🙂

next batch, we named all of our kittens after characters in dallas. we have jack, jill and a few others. jack died of old age but jill was killed by a hit and run.. we encountered her in front of the house bleeding still, when we got back from our auntie’s. all of us cried..

then, we had the amazing boy. he’s intelligent for a cat and he would always know how to get our attention.. dad was the closest to him where he would instantly run to the front of the house once he heard dad’s car entering the porch. he even accompanied dad reading newspaper by sitting on it. he died when dad accidentally run over him with his car. he sneaked out when he heard dad started the car and dad didnt realise until it was too late. dad was devastated and didnt go to work that day :/

garfield and jemir were brothers i took home from my college. i saw these two little yellow kittens playing in front of my house and they were adorable. these 2 were literally urchins as they would play with anything – they killed my mom’s flowers in the pot, broken many of the decorative items in the house and mom was definitely pissed. however, they were furry and sweet. both died with diseases and garfield died in my arms..

after them we had nicky, a tommy white and had a short tail.. this little number had saved mom from being bitten by a snake which was hiding under the cupboard in the kitchen. mom was angry when he was hissing and tried to scratch mom but actually he was warning mom about the killer cobra. mom was forever thankful to him for saving her life. nicky went away one day and never came back.

he was tough with wonderful black eyes. yaakub was another tabby we owned that was hard to forget. he was born on the backyard of our house and we instantly adopted him. he was normal but his death was heart breaking. when he grew older, he went out and fought his own territory and one day he was gone. after a few months, i heard a cat meowing outside and it was really familiar. there he was in the drain yet when i called him, he remained in it without coming to the door. i was puzzled and immediately i knew something was wrong. his legs were paralysed and we suspected he was run over by motorists roaming around the neighbourhood. after leaving home for months, he came back just to see us and died with all the family members around him 😦

hitam was my mom’s beloved. he was quiet and lazy but mom just loved him. he was all mysterious, probably because he was black 🙂 he died right after we took him to the veterinarian. he gave hitam a shot instead it killed him. he died in the car on the way back and mom was really upset. she blamed us for bringing him to the clinic.

we also had kuning. this one was taken home by my older sister. he was the most obedient and protective. this yellow chap would eat, go out and play but never forgot to come home. he was the only one allowed to sleep inside since he could go to the toilet himself when nature called. we just need to clean it in the morning. he too, went away one day and never came back.

we have many more after that and all of them carved memories unforgotten in us. people say, when a male cat is old enough to move on his own, he would leave his owner and roam around for his kingdom. ours were all gone and died elsewhere without us seeing it with our own eyes. they would have understand that death would only make us sad.

owning cats requires patience and the pure passion to loving them. they would touch you deep inside and when they are going to heaven, it would also do the same. it’s tormenting yet it developed you in some ways or another 🙂


domestic violence

24 Nov

a man with full force struck his fist on his wife’s jaw, ignoring the frightened children watching them in a tug of war between insanity & the desire to satisfy the hunger for pain. the vivid image of pure barbarism would remain deep in these children, in their hearts and mind. but the parents, would never care how it would defected the children inside. at the moment, what matters is satisfaction..

i witnessed such agonising tragedy with these two innocent eyes. watching such terror was heart breaking. i tried to help but i was hapless. weak compared to the energy of the madness driven in the blood of the predator and mind you, even the victim was in full throttle to defend the little soul left.

bruises & cuts were visible, yet, the hearts went weary & died.. it stopped beating once the so called husband made the first hit. the moment it touched and bruised the wife, she was practically dead inside. sadly, the children died too. died from an abnormal family relationship where it is normal for a father to  give a hard blow whenever his needs are not fulfilled. whenever the questions he asks are not answered and to as tiny as whenever the children ask for milk.

ironically, the victim would remain clingy and defensive to the abuser. the reason behind it would probably be out of dependence, yet, there are thousands of reason why and all of it would be unknown to us the outsider.  i pity the children. they didn’t respect their father but fear him. that is not love.. subsequently, the children would accept abusive force as means to get things done. to get whatever they want. little by little it’s portrayed in their normal day to day situation and fist fight is becoming routine and mandatory!

to consider nature vs nurture, when a man has the nature to beat off people just to show he’s right, it’ll nurture the same beastly attitude in his children especially to the sons. men tend to show their temper physically and most of the time, it would take a toll on the family.

abusive individual could come in any forms available. be it a fisherman or labour, but it could come from the intellectual group too. it’s the nature of these creatures which determine their doings, not the level of education they receive. it could be traumatically inherited or it’s in their blood.

just be careful out there. once they hit you, it might happen again!





an “itik-ayam” conversation

30 Sep

a normal chat at the canteen one day turned nitemare when my friends talked about external hard disk. the lady friend is an aloof-doesnt care bout gadget-type but the guy friend is by means, a mr know-it-all-always-anywhere.

it all started when i complained that my sister’s hard disk was undetected whenever it was connected to my laptop. so, my mr know-it-all (mkia), with all his knowledge & ability of using all these technical jargon into normal-unacceptable language, explained in detail how i could save the hard disk & the high chance of me getting it repaired ( he offered to do so too).

my lady friend, was as normally she would do, gawked & sarcastically rounded her eyes, signaling that she didnt even understand a minuscule bit. she kept on telling mkia that he didnt need to be so nice to tell her all the morbid sounded terminology of the components in a hard disk before mentioned.. nonetheless, as expected & learned, mkia would always finish last & continued lecturing us about the different types of pen drive, external hard disk & even laptops’ keyboard.. pheww

we were hoping to enjoy our favourite drinks at that time but all ended tasting so bland & unappetizing. this was due to the fact that the 3 parties involved in the “itik-ayam” conversation were actually not in the same interest & one party had actually in a persistent manner, continued to say whatever he knew on topic so alien to others but he thought was not. huh

moral of the story:

1. acceptable topic is always crucial to be considered in a conversation. when it involves more than 1 person, ensure what we’ll say is going to be understood unanimously. no point in talking if others dont understand u

2. terminology is something we do in class or lecture. when it comes to chatting to friends, keep every term you know elsewhere. be as casual as possible. u can throw in a few jargon but going overboard is making others BORED

3. the skill of reading body language is highly valuable & essential in effective conversation. a soft skill to be mastered as u can easily detect when people are uncomfortable with u or your way. ignorance of signs of boredom or intimidation is a BIG NO NO.

an “itik-ayam” conversation is actually where there’s no synchronization of ideas between the people involved. neither would understand except the one telling. we dont want that to happen to us, do we..

cakes of the century

10 Jul

The common dictionary defines cake as a sweet food made by baking a mixture that usually contains sugar, eggs, flour, and butter or oil. Most of us like cakes for its pleasurable and sinfully delightful taste. Name any flavours you want, there’ll be tonnes sold anywhere your feet could carry you.

Cake making is not a mere keeping up to the demand of sales but more of an art & competition nowadays. There’s no more simple decorated nor flavoured cakes but extravagant & peculiar as it embodies the development of men’s ideas & creativity.

Ever watch Ultimate Cake Off or Cake Boss? Just to name a few shows that display the high but attainable skills & ingenuity in crafting a cake. The shows have actually expose us to the new perspective of how enjoyment plus need can aspire unthinkable creations. A magnificient & spectacular sweet delicacy.

Mitch turner is one of the prominent cake shop owners in the UK. Gordon Ramsay, the saucy chef of ‘hell’s kitchen’, quote her as the bentley of cake making masters. She is the famous owner of celebrity-favorite little venice cake company (lvcc) . Her clients, of many are noted figures like madonna, pierce brosnan, david beckam and even the Queen. Lvcc’s lines of cakes are artistically figured & eye catching which includes party cakes, coutoure wedding cakes and even vintage. the intricate feature of a cake at lvcc marked up the price which can mount to 1ook but it is only a small expense for the rich & famous.

exquisite collection of LVCC

on the contrary, there’s always two sides of a coin. we have beautifully crafted cakes and we also have eerily mind boggling cakes to fit particular occasions mainly Halloween. men are developing but also nastily creative that leads to preparing savage looking cakes or simply frightening, that it makes some of us nauseous just by looking at them. it could range from ghouls & ghosts, dark legends or plain sickening. browse the internet and you’ll find numerous sites  catering for ‘dark’ cakes or even supplying the recipes to bake or decorate them. mind you, these kinds of cakes are also popular in demand even for weddings! go figure.

lost my appetite 😦

all in all, cakes are moving forward. moving together with the advancement of technology and mind of humans. looking at how the designs now, we are either making a difference or becoming more subconsciously psychopath. i refuse the latter.

quotes for life

8 Jul

what do you feel when you read the quote?

i was suddenly boosted with OVERJOY o.d. and elated because the quote is true.

somewhere in our life, we make people happy with our presence.

we affect somebody somehow that they will be the happiest when they see us or even catch the glimpse of us.

i have a lot more to share.

do enjoy these wonderful & magical spirit-boosting quotes in this entry..

bon apetite! 😛

akegahara hasu

7 Jul

under the foundation, a letter was sent to my school inviting all students to participate in an essay competition. the english panel decided to ask every students to send in their essays entitled “why my mother is so important to me”.

all other writings are boring and cliche except one essay written by a boy. he wrote everything about why his mother is important to him like everyone else with only one significant difference. as a woman with demanding career, i was touched when he said how his mother gave up her job just to take care of him. i quote “she told me that having money was fun, but having me was better”

as it was a reflective essay, he sincerely described how the mother educates & takes care of him. i was blown away as i am in no position to quit as i don’t have kids neither i have anyone to depend on financially. i wish i could do the same if i ever have children of my own because i do think it’s a holly thing to do.

to all mothers, thank you 😛

17 again

7 Jul

i was interested to watch this teenage flick last year when i saw the making. it seemed funny & light. but dunno how, i forgot all about it. last nite, my wish came true, it was previewed on hbo. my sisters & i were overjoyed, not the fact that we are zac efron’s die hard fan or what, but the trailer was funny.

through out the movie, we were smiling ear to ear to the fact that when we wish we are young again, it will not be the same. we might dread the decisions we made, but those clumsy, foolish & even mindless decisions had made all the person we are today.

age has somehow turn us into a different individual with different needs & desires. we tend to forget why we do things in the past & the reasons behind all our mistakes. forget why certain things matter so much to us & certain things should just remain history.

wishing i too were 17 again & living a wonderful problem-free world.. 🙂