is love blind?

10 Sep

being sensitive by nature, i am easily smitten by moments – romantic / heart warming ones. sumtimes, somebody could do something plainly simple but my heart would fall immediately for his action.

my dear friend calls me the goddess of love as i always have this high vision in love & wat it shud be in our lives. i also frequently justify the need of love in life & how we shud cherish it. my fren on the other hand, believes dat we shud only give wat others are giving us & never to go beyond wat we receive – if they give you 50% then, we shud do the same.

i believe in going the extra miles for love. it’s not that im clingy or pampered of sort, but i hold on to the idea that doing so is priceless in a relationship. it’s the epitome of pure love & pure demands sincerity. a friend said im dumb & im ok with her opinion. im dumb to her as i would trouble myself for a piece of cake for my loved one, for their birthday. i would spend a fortune for a birthday gift & travel hundreds of miles on flight just to celebrate a special day with my bf. i would do a lot of unthinkable things just to make sum1 happy.

i never regard my actions as a waste nor im waiting for a return. never. i only enjoy doing them as i hope all the things that i did, do & will be doing, are blessed.. i only see it in one way – what goes around comes around – and although it takes years to be fruitful, u’ll savour the sweetness of ur good deeds out of love one day.

here are some of my most priceless experiences:

1.  he’s a student in my school. being an orphan & adopted by a poor family, he never had the opportunity to enjoy luxuries in life. one day, he asked my help to bring him to a bank. he said he needed to withdraw some cash & i didnt mind as i was going to send some kids to the bus station. coming out of the bank, he was looking sad & restless. i was concerned & he told me dat there’s no money in his account. i was speechless but offered mine. he refused definitely & i got to know he needed the money to buy some baju raya. i was taken aback as i had promised myself, months before, to buy him some (without him knowing). i went back home feeling so guilty because i forgot all about it – the promise. i told my sis & we immediately ran to the nearest mall & shopped 2 shirts of his size. the next day, i quietly asked one of his friends to give him them. however, he knew it was me who bought him the shirts. he came instantly to ask about it & he was at the verge of crying. i was too but i only said that it was a gift i promised him. he gave me the most unidentifiable look i ever seen from him & i was afraid he would return them. the night of hari raya, he texted me. he said ive given him a priceless gift & was so ever thankful. i was glad he loved both shirts & after that, he was closer to me than ever before.

2. she’s incomprehensible. misunderstood most of the time. she’s undoubtedly a spoiled brat in her family. through good source, we found out that her demands were never denied. he academic performance was worrying many teachers, especially her subject teachers. i even seen with this very eyes, how she was scolded about her exam marks. as a teacher, i got angry too, even showed tantrum once i couldnt bear my dissatisfaction towards my students’ reluctance to change for the better, but the scolding she received that day was too sad to watch. that nite, i searched her FB account. i wrote what i expected from her & told her the needs for her to change her attitude towards learning. i was not teaching her so it’s difficult to actually talk to her face to face. after weeks, i received her reply. she was grateful that i cared although i was just another teacher to her. she thought everyone hated her. later, when we met in school, she came & hugged me. i was touched & since then, ive seen her changed & improved. she took it one step at a time, yet, she had done a miraculous improvement in her studies. one day, she came in to my room & handed me a pic. behind it there’s a writing – of how i had given her the strength to be better & be accepted. it completed another perfect day ^^

3. i never expected to be told how i was loved & missed by a shy boy but it happened. he was my mentee in school – where a mentor (me) is given the responsibility to be the foster parents to them. he was like a brother to me. he never did anything to hurt me & as ever protective & consoling. although he’s rather quiet & shy, but he would always share his problems & worries. i tried my best to help & all would be ended with a thank you from him. he never forgot to thank me. after school, he never stopped contacting – phone calls, text msgs, emails, FB & i am always thrilled to hear from him. it was never a lengthy one but he would always say hi. it has been 7 years & he is still the same. one day, he said that he’s going to change course. he’s taking ALAM & he’s been applying for years to be accepted. i was happy for him definitely. at the end of the conversation, he told me he loved me. i was flattered of course as it’s a rare occurrence for a boy to tell me so. i asked him why & he told me how he is thankful to have me in his life. how would u feel if somebody told u that? i was on cloud nine & in return, said i love him too which is true. he would occasionally text me to ask how am i doing & stuff & end them with telling me how he loved me & missed me. i am happy as he told me so as he means a lot to me too. he confessed that i had been so kind to him in school & he would never forget my kindness, that’s why he always contacted me. he rephrased an advice i gave him in school & i was touched that he still remembers. i thought hard of what i did for him in school & there’s nothing extraordinary about them. to him, my small kindness is a blessing & i was thankful to God to know him

although i seem fragile & weak to some, but i know that love could penetrate even the thickest human. kindness would always win & to be able to be kind, we have to do it out of love. out of care. im glad God has made me this way because it has made me loved by many, as i never fail to love them too ^^


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